Act 6, Scene 3

Falling apart piece by piece.

I should be use to it by now but this time is much worse.

I wait for the phone to ring but it never rings. Until I say I love you.

I wait to see your face. 3 days late it's an hour before I'm disappointed and you walk away again.

Then I wait for the phone to ring but it barely rings.

It's a constant struggle, all I can taste is blood my tongue so swollen I can barely speak.

I can't give up, but I can't give in.

Like a stupid sad love song "I just want you to want me"

Maybe I'm selfish, Maybe I'm dumb...

I'm growing weak, growing tired, growing restless.

What can I do? What do I do? What did I do?

Maybe I'm losing my mind....

I miss your warmth, I miss your touch, I miss your eyes looking into mine.

I miss that feeling of knowing your with me all the way, right by my side.

I don't enjoy this cold, I don't enjoy this distance.

It seems like at one point you were happy with me, you enjoyed being around me.

So I ask what changed, what did I do? do I need to change? tell me what to do and I'll sacrifice my pride to have you back.

Am I crazy?

You tell me that we're fine, maybe I just can't see?

Times are hard, and I understand, but I'm trying to be your crutch and you won't let me.

You tell me you will, that I'll be the first to know.

I know I shouldn't doubt you, but your fear is overbearing.

It's tearing us apart.

I lay here and wonder, I lay here and cry.

Worried and lost because of an uncontrollable feeling that consumes my very existance.

It's so hard to speak, and to look at you without wanting to runaway for fear of disappointment.

I'm not afraid of you, i'm afraid of losing you.

You tell me your not going anywhere, but sadly your already gone, you left about a month ago.

I bit my tongue as to not push you away with complaints and pointless conversation.

But it's not pointless, your everything to me.

You always were, don't you understand thats why I ran.

I didn't want to be the fool, I just wanted to be yours.

Two years later you were mine, I know it's not your intention but your running from me.

I can't be there for you, you won't let me.

I can't be with you, you won't let me.

I can't see you, you won't let me.

Worst of all our love won't work unless you let it.

I know I'm no shining star.

I know I'm nothing special.

I know I'm not full of fortune or amazing knowledge.

But I do know that I love you, and I know you love me.

So how do I get into your chaos.

I sit at home hoping I'll get a call, but the phone never rings.

I don't want to be with friends, what if I miss your appearance.

I don't want to see anyone but you.

I may lose friends, I may never leave the house.

But without you nothing matters at this point.

These words will prove to fail I'm sure.

I just want my girl back.

Act 6, Scene 2

Smoke my last cigarette, I'm kind of sad I need to buy another pack....

Went shopping for the lady for her birthday found some cool shit that I think she'll most definitely enjoy. And to think I almost just resorted to a couple cartons of smokes and a case of corona hahaha although I know she would have liked that I think she'll like her gifts more.

Hopefully I'll see her tomorrow who knows.

For now I'm gonna try and catch some z's which have been very scarce as of late.

Act 6, Scene 1

We find ourselves questioning everything around us. Wondering what we can do to change things, and change them for the better.

We ask ourselves questions that if we continue searching for them....well we'll never find any answers.

We search high and low for ultimate happiness when we know deep down we'll never find it.

The thing is we are only as happy and we make ourselves, We only better ourselves if we set our minds to do it. Last but not least those questions will only be answered if we let them be answered.

Today I woke up and realized sometimes you need to step back and let people do their own thing.

Sometimes you need to give people the space that will allow them to find themselves and in turn with by some great miracle of luck you might find yourself rewarded in doing so.

I know I can't change you, you know I can't change you, but maybe if I let you do what you want and stand back while you do it, maybe we'll be able to come back to what we both want, until then I sit here waiting and hoping that things will someday be ok.

As for the now, as hard as it is to say things are not ok, and I don't know how to make them ok. It takes 2 to tango and as for right now my toes are bruised,

If you need help I'm always here with an ear to listen, a throat full of words, and my heart is for you and for you alone. I know things are rough and I'm here to help when you need me, All you need to do is ask and I'll be there right beside you every step of the way.